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Seems like waiting makes me love you even more [Aug. 13th, 2006|01:46 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[Current Location |Dave's living room]
[mood |anxiousanxious]
[music |Boy meets Girl - Waiting for a star to fall]

Newsflash: I am moving to Olney today to live with my friends Teryn and Bruce, without my Dave. It feels strange but I really look forward to having my own room again... just my own space, period. I am really gonna miss his family, and our doggie Remy... but its not like I'll be living far away. I'll still be around... I'll just be working most of the time. The Hardest thing of all... I will miss seeing Dave everyday, but he's right.. I think this will be good for our relationship. I mean we've been together for 3 years, living together the majority of this time. Now we can have more time with by ourselves, and when we DO see eachother it will actually be special again, rather than just convienient and expected.

I recruited Hawaiian Mike at my work, which is very exciting! He starts training in New Jersey soon, (Haha I got to go to Montreal!) and I do believe they are putting him in my store soonafter! I get a $500 dollar recruiting bonus, so I think I'm gonna go ahead and buy myself a decent bed. Meantime... I cant be sleeping on an air mattress, b/c its too close to the floor, I have asthma, and they have a lot of animals- including a horse I hope I am not allergic to!

These are some big hard changes, but I think I am tough enough to endure them now.
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YAHOO! [Jul. 17th, 2006|04:51 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[music |Sex and the City in the background]

I am picking up my first, brand new car, in 1 hour.

I am having the best day EVER?!

AND I am going to Montreal for FREE, to train for my new job as a Design Consultant for BTG, for a week on Sunday!!!!!

Things are really looking up!!!
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The Death of Saturday Morning Cartoons [Jun. 17th, 2006|05:33 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |The David the Gnome theme song]

I have been spending a whole lot of time on www.youtube.com lately, and I keep coming across some clips of t.v shows from my childhood that I had almost completely forgotten about... I noticed how cheesy a lot of the themesongs were, and the animation compared to todays standards look 'crappy'... but it was the cheese that made it so awesome and funny! Even watching them now, it made me remember how these shows just fueled my imagination. I enjoyed the shit out of watching episodes of "David the Gnome", "Garfield and Friends", and "Fantastic Max."

It made me curious to find out what was going on with cartoons and what else kids watch nowadays... so, a couple of weeks back after I came back from Nation on friday, I stayed up all night untill the wee hours of the morning... hoping I would catch some kind of cool new or old Saturday morning cartoon... well, first of all, I'm old school so I automatically assumed the toons I used to watch would be on the same networks, Fox, ABC, USA, ..... there was nothing. So, I wondered since I have so many goddamn channels, there had to be something. There was nothing that even remotely reminded me of the time that I spent as a child, getting up extra early just to catch some of my favorite shows. What a way to start the day!

It was quite sad... so, I found this article that really explains why this happened.


All I know, is that I have to get my hands on some VHS tapes, or DVDs if there are any, of some of these classic shows just so I can show my future children what it was like to have quality shit to watch.

What has happened to the world? No one knows how to have some good ol' fashioned fun anymore. I really feel sorry for this new generation of kids.

*shakes fist at Disney Channel and Nickelodeon*

WTF is WRONG with you!?!?
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FUCK! [Jun. 4th, 2006|01:00 am]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |pissed offpissed off]
[music |the crystal method]

Hey guys I'm a friggin retard and was half asleep like 5 minutes ago and dropped my cell phone in the goddamn toilet!!! I think my phone is toast, I can't tell yet... but I am in need of all your numbers again! please email them to me on here!!!

~A Frantic Jenn

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Splendid news [May. 30th, 2006|08:48 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |A Perfect Circle - Orestes]

So I get this call the other day from Raine, my store manager from Prints, and she tells me that she got a call from this guy who works for FPE. Apparently, his company had just found out about our available location that just closed on Friday and were definately interested in that particular space to open up another framing store! AND since they bought us out and the store is ready for a transformation... they want the original staff to start training this week! SOOOO that includes all four of us! I'm ecstatic! Not only do I get my team back, the store is going to be better than ever. No more plastic frames, Better equipment, better communications, better turn around times, Oval shapes, better selection of frames (HUGE variety) wood fillets and tons of conservation mats!!!!! AND they offer benefits and commision!!! I really think I can do this, at least for a while, till I find a better deal somewhere else or get my own store since the company is always expanding. YAY for me =)

I also just attempted to do pilates which I have never tried before... not bad for a first attempt, I really enjoyed it. It was very hard and I know its just gonna get harder but I have to be able to look awesome in this bathing suit I just ordered before it arrives in 2 weeks

now if I can just find a similar necklace to complete the look..
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Vaya con Dios, my hippi fun [May. 18th, 2006|09:40 am]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |crushedcrushed]
[music |silence]

I came out here in PA to breathe in some of the country air for the week.. to spend Mother's Day appropriately with mom, to sort some things out in my head with all my free time, and to visit an old friend while still recovering from surgery.

Last night, I came over to Jessie's place in Harrisburg. I hadn't seen her since fall. While Jessie was taking a shower, I was checking my email, since it had been days.. when I noticed that there was an email from someone who I've never spoken to... but I knew who she was. Her name was Jenna. She had been romantically involved with Justin, somewhat soon after I was; and up until now, on and off. Justin never talked about her with me, but I knew about her anyway. When I realized who this email was from, my heart sank. I read her subject.. "A sad cold day, in May" and I just knew... I started to cry before I even read what she had to tell me.

She wrote saying that she wasn't sure if anyone had told me yet, but she wanted me to know, that Justin was gone forever. He died of an overdose on Mother's Day. He was alone, someone found him in his room. She said it was Xanax and dope mixed. She said she knew Justin and I were close.

I brokedown. It took me hours to write her back a reply, mainly just to thank her for telling me but then I just kept writing and writing about him... I don't really know why, I don't even know her.

Now, I am just so fucking sad... I adored that boy. We were in love, once. I kept telling myself, 'Jenn, don't be stupid. You knew this was the path he had chosen'... but what just kills me is that I have been thinking about him lately, more than usual. I was just talking about him yesterday. I've been meaning to get ahold of him just to see how he was doing.

I have never had any sense of closure with Justin Hobday. I think I knew in my heart that something fatal was going to happen to him, and did nothing. NOTHING. I haven't called him in over a year.. assuming that he wouldn't want to hear from me since I broke his heart, and always felt like I had abandoned him. I kept thinking the recent girl in his life would be able to pick up the pieces and fill that missing void of his that I couldn't and he would just forget all about me.

I ultimately just couldnt handle the hardcore drug lifestyle. Ever since the car accident when he nodded out at the wheel, I realized I was so blinded by my love for him to see the truth that I didn't want to see. It was too intense for me... of course I loved the idea that he would stop doing drugs for me, but most of all just to give it up for his own sake. I really wanted him to have a life again, whether I was in it or not... it just wasn't that easy. He was so far gone on that junk, it was like there was no turning back.

I wish I could just talk to him and hold him one last time. Tell him that I wish I was a better friend to him after our relationship fell apart. Tell him all the things I loved about him, and how I remember everything that was good about us above what was wrong. How I remember him telling me it was love at first sight when we met at R.O.A.R in D.C, in the fall of 2003. Tell him how sorry I am that our love wasn't enough to keep us together like I thought it could.. but most of all, I wish that I could have saved him somehow, and that I would've been enough to keep him away from that dark place.

The reality is that I wasn't, and never would be... neither was Jenna. A part of me will always love him, and a part of me feels like it has died too. I don't even have the strength to go to his funeral. I must visit his grave as soon as I can.

One of my favorite Justin quotes "I think, therefore, I ambient"

r.i.p Justin Hobday, my hippi fun. I will always remember how you were.

so fucking beautiful :*(
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VH1 Decades Rock Live... I hate you! [May. 7th, 2006|04:03 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[music |The new Tool album shhhhh]

I am furious! So the VH1 Classic channel finally showed the Decades Rock Live Tribute to Heart tonight....... I got all excited, and decided to sit down and watch it considering I've been looking forward to it for quite some time.....and .... it was WEAKSAUCE. I mean, I love Heart, I do... but in all honesty, I was aching to see A.I.C throw down and jam for a while.... they only showed them playing 2 fucking songS!!! First of all... Would? was butchered by that guy from Pantera or whatever and I wanted to slap him silly!!! I didnt mind the second singer, William from Comes with the Fall, too much when he sang Rooster, and Ann Wilson from Heart sang along... that was cool, but they just didnt show anything else, and I am disapointed! It was nice to see Jerry Cantrell up there looking so happy just to be playing his songs, but I guess I had too many expectations... it was a tribute to Heart, not just an exclusive A.I.C reunion... besides, they probably played more songs and just didnt show it on the special =(

On a lighter note, I am recovering well from surgery. =)
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AHHHHHHHHH [Feb. 6th, 2006|11:52 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
omg animal crossing is the most addictive game ever!?!?! wtf i cant stop playing it! someone shoot me in the head!!!
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turn around [Jan. 29th, 2006|12:26 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |alice in chains - got me wrong]

LEO: Today it may be easier to make a clean break from some aspect of your life that is no longer serving you well. But more than leaving something behind, think about what you can pull into your life that is new. There is an exceptional depth to your attractions now and you should take your desires seriously. The potential is high for entering into a joint venture--romantic or business. Whatever you do, above all else, be honest.

damn, that is so on point. i knew my life is about to take a wicked turn.
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mark these words [Jan. 9th, 2006|12:10 pm]
jenn jenn the twisty funz
[mood |awakeawake]
[music |The Mars Volta - Televatos (De-loused In The Comatorium)]

Just as he hit
The ground
They lowered a tow that
Stuck in his neck to the gills
Fragments of sobiquets
riddle me this
three half eaten corneas
who hit the area
Stalk the ground
Stalk the ground
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stained walks crutch in hobbled sway
A capulary hint of red
Only this manupod
Crescent in shape has escaped
The house half the way
Fell empty with teeth
That split both his lips
Mark these words
One day this chalk outline will circle this city
Was he robbed of the asphalt that cushioned his face
A room colored charlatan
Hid in a safe
Stalk the ground
Stalk the ground
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway
A capulary hint of red
Only this manupod
Crescent in shape
Has escaped
Pull the pins
Save your grace
Mark these words
On his grave
You should have seen
The curse that flew right by you
Page of concrete
Stain walks crutch in hobbled sway
A capulary hint of red
Everyone knows the last toes are
Always the coldest to go
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